"How do you feel?"

...pretty despondent. dont worry,  im refering to my social life. and pessimistic. yeah, definitely pessimistic. 

So, I do what I normally do when Im in this kind of mental/emotion train wreck, I evaluate. 

I evaluated, and came up with nothing. which is the problem. 

The churning feeling of knowing there is nothing there for you, it frightens me. it really does. It also pisses me off. Mostly loneliness, I hate the feeling when lonesome creeps up. 

Oh, if you havent guessed it by now fellow reader(s); I need someone HAHA. Im placing aside my dignity and self-pride for a short while, just to embarass myself; I really need someone. 

I usually, no scratch that, I never blog like this. about this. But, I guess desperate times call for desperate cries for help, and self-expression. 

So, fuck it, Im going to go on a lookout for a someone. Im done waiting. 

Hmm.      

This is new.